Chapter 102
Chapter 102
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The serious tone in Rave’s voice worries me. The last time she said she had something important, she revealed that the pack wasn’t under a curse but instead someone really powerful and potentially evil was imprisoned there.
“She hasn’t hinted at what she wants to talk about.” Alec asks, running his hands through his hair.
“No,” I answer, placing my phone back in my pocket. “She just told me to get my ass back to the pack.”
“Let’s go then.”
He doesn’t have to tell me twice. I turn on my heels and head towards the door. We drove here together because, like Alec said, we needed to sell the idea of a couple. Besides, my right hand is in a cast, so I can’t really drive myself anywhere.
Before I can get to the door, Alec appears in front of me, almost startling me in the process. He unlocks the car and opens the door for me. I stand there like a statue, not really sure what the hell was
going on.
“What are you doing?” I shake my head and ask, because, what the hell?
“I’m opening the door for you,” he shrugs. “You never open the door for yourself when we are together.”
“You are assuming that this ‘togetherness‘ will happen again,” I murmur getting inside the car.
He doesn’t reply; he just closes the door, walks to the other side and gets in. He starts the car, pulling away from the house, and all the while I’m wondering what the hell he was planning.
I’ve already agreed to help his pack, so what is with the gentleman act? Why can’t he just leave things the way they are? Alec has never wanted me before, so why is he acting up now? Why is he pretending
that he does?
The more I thought about it, the more I got confused. He was confusing, and he was messing me up. I didn’t like that at all. Like I said, my life was perfectly normal before we discovered we were mates. I hate the complications he is bringing me now.
Have you ever been tempted to jump out of a speeding car? I hate the awkward atmosphere that has filled the car. Normally I would have tried to fill the awkward silence, but this time I won’t. I mean, this is Alec we are talking about. The last thing I want us to do is have a conversation.
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Instead of focusing on the unpleasantness inside the car, I instead look outside, focusing on the scenery. Alec’s wealth surprises me. He lives in an exclusive gated community for the rich. It’s not that I don’t have money; I do, but still. Alec is a freaking billionaire.
If I am being honest, I never thought that one day I’d be here. That I’d have the kind of money I do or have my own pack. Like I said, my pathetic younger self built her life around Alec. I never planned on working, even though I would have gotten a monthly stipend as a Luna. For me, that was enough. I wanted to be there to personally raise our kids. Sure, I’d do my Luna duties, but my focus was meant for my kids and Alec.
I internally scoff thinking about my life goals. I don’t have anything against stay–at–home moms, but I can’t believe that I had built my life around a man. A man who ignored my existence because I wasn’t his type, and he found me annoying. I looked forward to being Alec’s mate, and that’s it. I didn’t have any ambitions, plans, or goals that didn’t involve him. It’s pathetic that I made him my main focus, given doing that gave me nothing but pain.
“I want us to talk about Aspen,” his voice pulls me from my thoughts.
I turn to face him, narrowing my eyes at him. “What about her?”
“I would very much appreciate it if you’d give me the chance to get to know my daughter,” he answers, in a cautious tone.
I stare at him and just take him in. His eyes were firmly fixed on the road while his hands gripped the steering wheel. He sat up straight, which looked uncomfortable by the way. It’s almost like he had a
ramrod instead of a spine.
“Why would I do that, Alec?” I ask, leaning against my chair. “You didn’t want her, remember? You almost killed her. So why would I let you anywhere near my daughter?”
He sighs, as if he already knew that I would be difficult about this: “She’s my daughter too.”
“You seem to have selective amnesia, You clearly told me that you wouldn’t allow your child to be born by a whore. That whore being me. So what has changed since then, hmm? Is it finding out we are mates? Is it finding out that I wasn’t in the wrong?”
He remains quiet. His eyes briefly scanned my face before they were back on the road. I lay my good hand on my lap, waiting to see what bullshit answer he’d come up with. When he still doesn’t say anything, I continue.
“Tell me,
if the truth hadn’t come out and you still thought I was a whore, would you have wanted her? If we were not mates, would you still be interested in being in her life?”
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His jaw clenches and so do his hands on the wheel. I didn’t want to let him go easily, though. His words from that day still haunt. Still ring in my fucking head more times than I care to admit.
“I made a mistake, Sadie,” he whispers, his voice hoarse.
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“You don’t get it. A mistake is buying the wrong cereals or cooking beef when everyone had asked for chicken–that kind of thing. Wanting to kill your child and her mother isn’t a mistake. It’s a conscious
decision.”
My heart still aches thinking about that day. If Raven had been a minute late, I wouldn’t be here, and neither would Aspen. Most of my bitterness towards Alec stems from that day. I don’t care about the
torture as much as I care about him almost ending Aspen’s life.
“You had cost me who I believed was my mate. I thought you were lying to me.”
“And why would I lie?”
“Think about it, Sadie. I had just banished you. Life as a banished wolf is hard enough, but life as a banished wolf who has no training whatsoever, money, or anything for that matter is terrible. I thought you wanted back into the pack, so what better way than to lie about being pregnant with the Alpha’s pup?”
I am starting to get angry. Livid is more like it. “After all the fucking hell you put me through in that dungeon, you seriously thought I would willingly come back to you if I didn’t have a good fucking
reason?”
He slows down and lets out a breath. “Now that you put it that way, I admit that I should have thought it through. I was just so angry and bitter. I was too consumed by my hatred to think clearly.”
Is it weird that as much as I try to understand his reasons, I just can’t? Yes, Raven explained why Alec wasn’t able to sense Aspen, but that doesn’t absolve him of his crimes. The fact that he still wanted to kill me even after I told him I was pregnant–that’s what I am having a hard time letting go of
“When a woman you’ve slept with tells you she’s pregnant, even if you don’t trust her, you take her to the goddamn doctor and get answers before assuming that she’s lying. How do you expect me to let you into her life when you had your hand in my chest, ready to rip out my heart even after I told you I was pregnant? Just like with the drugged drinks, you didn’t bother to find out the truth. You simply chose to believe I am a liar and a manipulator.”
“I’m sorry,” comes his thick voice after I am done with speaking.
His eyes give nothing away, but his rigid posture does. It’s almost like his mistakes have finally dawned on him, and he doesn’t know what to do or say.
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This time I don’t say anything. I go back to looking outside, thinking that it’s a little bit too late for an apology. It doesn’t really matter now, because the damage has been done and it can’t be reversed.
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We drive in silence, both of us lost in our own minds and thoughts. About forty minutes later, we arrive at the pack. The moment he parks the car, I get out silently, not even bothering to look back at
him.
I find Raven in the meeting room pacing. Jason, Micah, and, surprisingly, Piper were there with her.
“Raven?” I call, making her swivel around to face me.
“I’m not one hundred percent sure,” she begins. “But I think I found the person who is imprisoned in that confinement spell.”
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