Chapter 187
it was amazing.
With every inch that he pushed into me, every move of his hips, it felt fucking amazing. Maybe… maybe it was because i finally knew, perhaps because I finally felt it.
“Kade,” I whispered as I grabbed his neck, slamming my lips on his.
“I know,” he muttered against my lips, his voice rough. “I know, my darling.”
No words were needed between us, because in some unexplainable way, we both know. We both knew that something had changed. It wasn’t the same with us again. And I know it was because of me.
Because I’ve finally decided to stop running. Because I’ve decided to let go of the guilt and move forward with healing. Because I’ve decided to love again.
Kade was fully in me now and he didn’t waste any time before he started thrusting, moving his hips slowly, but he touched me in that place deep enough that made my toes curl and my back arch off the bed.
Kade grabbed both my hands, pinning them above my head and interlocking our fingers. He looked into my eyes as he thrust, not saying anything, and yet the silence was so loud, his eyes communicating things to me.
“I love you,” they say. “I love you. I love you. I love you.”
I didn’t close my eyes like I would have in the past, but instead, I made sure to look back at him, to not hide anymore.
I don’t know what he saw in my eyes, but whatever he did, made him shiver. He cursed softly, looking away first and burying his face in my neck as he continued his shallow thrusts.
“Fuck, Belladonna,” he cursed again, his hips moving slowly but deep, his voice shaking. “Fuck, you’re driving me crazy.”
“I’ve decided to stop being a coward,” I whispered, moaning softly as he pressed deep. “I’ve decided not to run anymore.”
He kissed my neck softly, his lips trembling as he pressed it against mine, kissing me so softly and tenderly that I felt his love for me. I greedily sucked it as I kissed him as if I was trying to swallow him whole.
“You’re not a coward,” he said gently when he broke the kiss, pulling back so he could look into my eyes. “You’ve never been a coward.”
I shook my head. “No, I-”
“You just needed time,” he cut me off, his voice soft. “That was all. You weren’t a coward. Honestly, Belladonna, I also feel that guilt you feel. I’ve also taken a life as well. But… but I don’t want that to stop me from finding happiness. That was why I leaped at you.”
I sat up, caressing his chest before I pushed him down until his back was on the bed, and he was staring up at me with his eyes filled with lust and passion.
“Felt,” I corrected as I climbed on top of him, straddling his hips.
“What?” he asked with an eyebrow raised.
“I don’t feel guilty anymore,” I answered, positioning him on my entrance. “I’ve come to the terms that we both agreed to hold onto to each other. He decided to stay, to fight. So it wasn’t my fault. And the Luca I know wouldn’t want me to be unhappy. He would want me to find love and be happy again.
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Chapter 187
I sat down on him and he groaned, the sound so deep and sinfully sexy. He grabbed my hips, his nails digging into them as 1 lowered myself until every inch of him was in me, and he was balls deep.
“So Kare,” I breathed, panting, “let your own guilt go. Let it all go, and let it just be… us. Let’s not think of past lovers who have gone And we’re definitely not going to think of future partners who will never come.”
He scoiled, but I know that was just an excuse to hold back his overwhelming emotions I could see in his eyes. “Definitely”
I started moving my hips, slowly, gently, because this moment was too precious to be rushed. Everything about this moment was gentle, even the air around us was soft. And since I was in Kade’s room, his scent that filled every corner surrounded me, heightening the pleasure.
bounced on his dick, moving my hips in circles. We didn’t look away from each other’s eyes, not even to blink. Our eyes dayed glued to each other, like we were scared that if we looked away for even a second, the moment would disappear into hin air.
And the pleasure… God, the pleasure it was unlike any we’ve experienced. It was more intense More powerful. And yet so render and soft that it made you emotional.
Kade… this man. This beautiful man beneath me was my pillar and strength. I couldn’t live without this man. How did I manage to live without him? Sex and alcohol, that’s how.
That wasn’t living; that was just merely existing.
But he came alone and changed that. He was cold, hard, and yet the softest person I know. He was loyal and someone you could depend on.
He was my husband.
“I love you, Kade.”
I felt his dick… grow. Not like when he was knotting, but it just hardened even more.
He held my hips tightly, suddenly flipping our position so he was on me. His breathing has grown ragged, a wild look in his
eyes.
“Say that again,” he growled, thrusting in hard and fast.
I moaned loudly, my back arching but I didn’t look away from his eyes. “I love you”
He growled, slamming in, a glow entering his eyes. “Again, Belladonna.”
My nails scratched his back as he thrust brutally in me, his balls slapping against my core and creating a sweet friction.
“I love you, Kade,” I moaned as he fucked me hard and fast, his eyes glowed, and I could see the wolf I saw that night. “I love you. I love you. I love you.”
“Bella,” he rasped, sweat dropping down his chin, his hair falling and covering his face. “Belladonna, I want you to be my
mate”
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Sara Lili is a daring romance writer who turns icy landscapes into scenes of fiery passion. She loves crafting hot love stories while embracing the chill of Iceland’s breathtaking cold.
