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Chapter 19 19- Do Not Ask Him To Dance 

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Hopefully, IOh! Just a second.I pause. My phone vibrates insistently in my pocket. I dig it out and see Mum across the screen. Of 

course she would check in already, she’s probably been pacing since 6 a.m. I quickly answer

Hey Mum!I say, maybe too brightly, but whatever, I’m in a good mood

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Morning sweetheart, how are you today?She asks

I’m good, having breakfast with Blake.I say it casually, like it’s totally normal for me to be having meals with a gorgeous dragon shifter 

who gave me a diamond bracelet this morning

I have to go to class soon though, so I can’t talk for long. How are you and Dad?I ask

We’re fine, just fine hon. I’m about to do some grocery shopping. I just wanted to ask if you’re coming home this weekend.She prompts

Oh, umI think so? I don’t really know what my plans are yet.I admit. Out of the corner of my eye, Blake lifts a hand to get my attention. When I glance at him, he leans slightly forward and speaks in a very low voice meant only for me

Check your schedule.He murmurs. Right. Because apparently schedules here obey no physical laws. I dig the folded sheet from my pocket and open it, expecting Tuesday’s schedule. InsteadThe whole week appears

Oh.I breathe softly. During weekdays, it just says Classes until 4 P.M.Which is vague but workable. Friday, however, is different

FRIDAY Classes until 1 P.M. 

ACADEMY WELCOME DANCE!!! 

There are several exclamation points. Maybe the schedule is excited for me? That’s weirdly adorable. I go back to the phone

Hey Mum, you still there?I check

Of course.She replies dryly. I can practically hear her rolling her eyes

Okay, wellI trail off as I scan the page again

There’s some kind of school dance on Friday, so I probably want to stay for that. How about I come home Saturday and stay overnight?

suggest

That sounds great, Sweetie. You can invite your friend to come visit it you like, although I guess he probably wants to go visit his own family.She adds. I can practically hear the pout in her tone. I look up at Blake. Ils expression isPriceless. Shocked. Bemused. And 

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somehow like he’s trying not to laugh at the absurdity of the universe. I tilt my head in question, and he just gives me that wideeyed did 

that actually happenlook

I’m not sure, Mum. I’ll let you know soon, I need to ask Blake about it. Anyway, I’ll let you get back to your shopping. Talk later. Love 

you, bye!I say goodbye. I barely lower the phone before Blake starts talking

Did your mum really just invite me over?He asks doubtfully. I shrug

Sure, why not?I answer. Blake stares at me. Not blinking. Like I just told him gravity reversed

No one invites me over.He says bluntly. He says it flatly, no selfpity, no expectation of disagreement. Just a simple statement of factThe kind you only develop after hearing noyour entire life. Something hot and irritated twists in my stomach. Not at him. At them. Everyone who’s treated him like a monster without even knowing him

Well, you’re welcome to come. Unless you’d rather go to your own home, that is.I say with a shrug. Blake’s eyes sharpen, something bright and intense flickering there for a second

I’ll come.He says, firm, decisive, no hesitation at all. He meets my eyes without looking away. I seriously wonder if he has ever had an 

invitation toAnything

Yes! It’ll be fun. I can’t wait.I say excitedly. My grin feels too wide for my face, but I can’t help it. Then a thought hits me

Also, what’s with this dance thing? I didn’t know we HAD a dance.I point out. Blake groans like I’ve personally offended him

You didn’t know?He mutters

It’s an Academy tradition. Beginning and end of each year. Welcome dance for new students, farewell dance for the ones leaving. The theme changes every year. People dress up, there’s dancing, music, foodThat kind of thing.He says. The words are positive but his tone implies that it would be hell

That sounds awesome! I’m actually really excited.I gush, leaning forward

What about you?I prompt, eyes narrowed. He looks away so fast you’d think the question physically pained him

I wasn’t really planning on going. He trails off. His answer is blunt. His tone flat. I frown. Hard

What? Why not?I demand. He exhales, annoyed, not at me, but the situation

Because I don’t want to. Besides, you’ve heard what the other students say about me. I’m not exactly welcome. He points wat His Bark pokes halfheartedly at his bacon

I don’t go to parties. There’s no point going to a dance if no one will dance with you.He adds. I roll my eyes so dramatically I’m surprised they don’t fly out of my skull

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Well you should come to this one. I’ll dance with you.I insist. Blake goes very still, eyes narrowing like he’s trying to assess whether I’m joking or deeply unhinged. He looksReluctant. Digging his heels into the earth reluctant. So I deploy my strongest weapon. It works 

on my parents at least. Wide, desperate, sweet cartoonprotagonist eyes

Please! You’re the only friend I’ve made. I don’t want to go by myself.I plead. He winces like that physically hurts him

I’ve never been to a party with Supernaturals before.I continue dramatically

I’ll probably make a fool of myself if I go alone. Please please please!I beg. Blake groans, a long, drawn out, resigned to his fate sound

You would think I was asking him to cut off a limb, not go to a party

How does anyone ever say no to you?He mutters. Then, glaring at me like it’s MY fault he has feelings (which it might be), he finally 

gives in

Fine. I’ll go. Just because you asked.He reluctantly agrees. My grin explodes back onto my face

The theme should be announced soon. Probably tonight.He adds grudgingly

Yay!I cheer, clapping my hands, unable to help myself

Thank you, thank you, thank you! I’m so excited! I haven’t been to a party in forever!I say gleefully. Blake watches me gush, and his expression softens in a way that would probably terrify the rest of the campus. But right now? He looks almostPleased. Even if he 

doesn’t want to go to the dance

It’s been a long time for me as well.He admits quietly

StillIt might be funIf it’s just the two of us.The way he says it, careful and deliberateIt sends a warm flutter through my chest. Just the two of us. YeahOkay, I’m okay with that

Blake sighs heavily

I’m glad you’re excitedBut we can talk about it more later.He grumbles. He straightens, like he’s forcibly shutting the topic away 

before it can get too sappy

It’s getting late. We should probably get to class. What do you have first?He asks. I glance at my schedule, it’s back to the daily version 

again

UhBasic Potion Making. That sounds kind of fun? What about you?I asks. Blake grins, REALLY grins, and his eyes flare with that 

molten gold that still startles me

Defence Skills.He answers. He says it like he’s just won a lottery

You like defence skills?I ask, because honestly, this is the most enthusiastic he’s sounded about anything except hoarding and setting things on fireBlake laughs, bright and sharp

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Well, yeah. It’s basically a class on who can fight the best.He answers as if this should illuminate the whole universe for me. It doesn’t

So?I prompt. He gives me an incredulous look

So, I always win fights. I don’t mean to brag, but I’m basically the biggest, baddest predator around.He clarifies. I snort. I can’t help it

If you say so.I tease. Biggest? Maybe. Baddest? Well that’s extremely debatable

Still, defence skills seems like something everyone should be taking, doesn’t it?I continue. Blake shrugs, a lazy roll of his shoulders

Maybe. But it doesn’t come naturally to some people. Some people are made to fight. Others are made to heal. Everyone is good at different things.He answers. I chew my lip. It doesn’t sit quite right with me

That just sounds like training the strong to be stronger and the weak to be weaker. Shouldn’t everyone be able to protect themselves?

meanPersonally, I would like to be able to protect myself.I argue. Blake’s response is not verbal, not at first. A low growl thrums in his 

chest, quiet but unmistakable, and his eyes flare gold again, brighter this time

You don’t need to.He says, voice low and edged with something possessive

That’s what I’m for. I’ll keep you safe.He says firmly. I blink at him, startled

ThanksI guess? But I’m not your responsibility. I can take care of myself.I insist. He raises an eyebrow at me

I didn’t say you can’t take care of yourself. Just that you won’t need to.He counters immediately

But J-I start. He cuts me off, stepping closer, tone suddenly sharper

Do you WANT to punch someone? To hit them? Potentially cause them pain?He asks bluntly, almost harshly. I shudder so visibly I see 

his expression soften by a fraction

Okay, I guess not.I admit

I don’t want to attack anyone. But I would like to be able to take care of myself.I clarity. Blake nods, but it’s the slow, calculating kind

not agreement so much as strategy

Think about it this way. I can’t heal. It isn’t possible for me. I don’t have the power, and I definitely don’t have the temperament of 

patience required.He starts. Understatement of the century

There isn’t time for every person to learn to be great at everything. So doesn’t it make more sense to learn what comes naturally? It’s 

about balance. Some people heal. Others fight.He explains. He holds my gaze with unnerving intensity 

So the real question is, would you rather split your focus and be mediocre at fighting and passable at beating, on become an incredible healer and keep someone you trust at your side to defend you if needed?He questions. As he speaks, he taps his chest once. lightly. That 

tap is a promise. I can’t help but smile

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I’d much rather fight. Especially if I know someone will care for me if I’m hurt.He finishes simply. I swallow. Hard. His argument is… 

Honestly very convincing. And very Blake

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I supposeI wouldn’t find fighting natural.I say slowly

No. You wouldn’t.He agrees firmly, smiling at me, his tone is not mocking, not condescending. There’s a pause. He can see that I’m 

clearly still not totally happy with the answer

You can always learn to fight later. There’s no hurry. You didn’t know how to fight before now, and you’re just fine. Focus on one thing 

at a time. There’s nothing stopping you from learning something new further down the track. No need to overwhelm yourself with 

everything right now. Just do the things you want to do.He clarifies. The way he says you’re just fineIt feels like more than 

reassurance. His tone is certain. It’s like a decision he’s already made

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