Chapter 37
Sadie.
I use the sliding doors to enter my room through the balcony. Slowly, I walk towards the full-length mirror and just silently stare at myself.
I was confused about what happened or what the hell I was. I turn to my right, then to my left, and check out the white pair of wings that were on my back. I always thought that angels were just fiction, which, when you think about it, is funny since humans believed the same thing about our goddess.
Humans, just like us, have their deities. I never paid much attention to their religion or beliefs, but now looking at my wings, I can’t help but wonder if I’d been wrong to brush off their beliefs in their gods and angels.
I take a step back when I think of the power that had drummed through me when I was beating the hell out of Alec. Everything happened so fast, and the only thing I remember before my body shot up into the clouds was pure, undiluted pain and fierce anger. Those and the need to protect those I loved. I knew that Alec would go through with his threat of killing everyone if I didn’t do something about it.
It fucking terrified me, and that’s when something inside me snapped. Things were a bit of a blur, but I still feel the power inside me. It’s something I can’t describe, nor have I ever felt.
“I need an explanation, Nyx.” I whispered desperately.
When she said I wasn’t ready and that I’d shift when it was time, this isn’t what I had in mind. I thought I would transform into a wolf, not whatever this was.
Before she could speak, though, the door opened. Raven and King walked in, worry marking their faces. They both lunged at me, engulfing me in a big hug. I was happy to be in their arms, but because of the large wings, I felt a bit uncomfortable.
“Guys, I’m okay,” I murmured. “And could you please let me go? You’re crashing me.”
They listened, and then Raven turned to me, giving me a once-over.
“You have to explain that,” she said, pointing to my wings.
King interrupted. “Start at the beginning. We need to understand what the hell happened, how all this is possible, and what exactly you are.”
Sighing, I try to sit on the bed because I’m bone tired, but that’s not possible given my current state.
“How do I get rid of the wings, Nyx?” I asked.
She was lazily lying down, her head on her paws. She was feeling content, while I was edgy and unsettled.
“Just imagine yourself with no wings,” she replied lazily. “That should do it.”
Closing my eyes, I envisioned my back without wings. Weirdly enough, despite how big they were, they weren’t heavy. It was going to take some time to get used to them, but once I do, I’m sure it will feel like an extension of my limbs.
Minutes later, I was wing-free and thus able to sit down on the bed.
“Well?” Raven pushed, probably desperate for answers.
Taking a deep breath, I try to calm down my beating heart. “I don’t know what to say. Most of the things were blurry. It’s like I was there but wasn’t at the same time. When Alec had his claws in my throat, Nyx told me that it was time. Then the pain
1/2
Chapter ог
started, and I felt like I was being ripped from the inside out. When it was finally over, she told me to give her control.”
“You were shifting,” Nyx told me in a singsong voice. “You have no idea how long I’ve waited for this.”
She seemed excited and happy. Aside from when Aspen was born, this is the only other time I’ve felt true happiness radiating from her.
(
“Yeah, and you both proceeded to beat the shit out of Alpha Alec and his pack,” King muttered, his arms folded across his chest and his legs apart.
“They deserved it,” I said, seething. “After what they did to me, I should have fucking killed them.”
King raised his hands in surrender. A small smirk was playing on his lips. “I’m not complaining, it was epic watching that bastard get pounded.”
The audacity of Alec to threaten me and my loved ones. The man was nothing but a narcissistic bastard. He was a monster, and it felt good to hurt him like he hurt me.
“I should have killed him.” I repeated.
“But you didn’t,” Raven stated. “The Gamma, Micah… he stopped you, and you listened. Why?”
Gosh, I wanted to kill him so badly. I hated him, and so did Nyx. We saw him as a threat to our daughter, family, friends, and pack members. We have had a bone to chew with that man since he locked me up in his dungeon and tortured me for months.
We were filled with so much anger. So much bitterness. Seeing him brought it all back. The pain, the fear, and the helplessness I felt back then. Recognizing some of his warriors brought back memories of them hurting me, taunting me, and laughing every time I begged for mercy.
I wanted them gone. The world would have been a better place without them. I doubt anyone would have missed them. I, for one, wouldn’t.
I still carry the scars on my back from my time in their hands. The scar on my face was a stark reminder of the kind of man Alec is. A man who should be six feet under and not strutting around in other people’s packs, making threats.
Sometimes I don’t know whether to be happy or not. I’m glad he lost Lola. That way he can live with the fucking pain of being rejected forever, but then again, it’s because he lost his mate that he turned on me. It’s an impossible situation, but either way, I’m happy that he went through that pain. It may not have been psychical like what I went through, but it is pain
nonetheless.
“Earth to Sadie,” Raven snaps her fingers in front of me. “You haven’t told us why you spared Alec’s sick pack when his Gamma asked you too. I’m also curious why he was the only one you didn’t touch.”
“It’s because I owe him,” I said, then sucked in a lungful of air. “Micah is the one who helped me escape the dungeons.”
