The last time I
s here, this house didn’t seem as intimidating it is now. Although I’m nervous, I’m not second guessing my choice. From the moment he turned on me, every bit of my fe at his side has been turned against me. The love Lonce felt for him was weaponized to make me feel like I was nothing le tainted it all with his disregard for everything that I am Every possibility between us died the first time he put his hands on me.
This feels a lot like the moon goddess is trying to force me to stay with this beast. I guess I don’t expect much from her anymore. Not since she cursed me to be this thing that everyone looks down on. Everything I have ever accomplished has been regarded with a that’s good, you know, for an omega.
I will not subject this tiny thing inside of me to something that was broken long before it even started. This pain is beginning for me, but the joke had been written from the instant Santiago realized what I was and decided that he would keep me around as his little plaything. I can’t, and I will not ever regret this.
“How are you feeling?” Dr Grant asks.
“I don’t know how to answer that,” I admit. The front door opens and I almost jump out of my seat when the King walks in. looking around until his eyes fall on me.
“My King, Dr Grant stands in front of me as if she were going to protect me from him.
“It’s okay,” I take her hand. “He knows.”
“Give me a few minutes to finish prepping, she glances back at me and nods. She bows to the King and excuses herself into the back rooms.
“What are you doing here?” 1 ask him.
“You don’t have to do this,” he says, sitting beside me. I’ve been replaying our conversation over and over in my head. I think maybe what I said might have been biased due to my hatred for your mate.”
Then maybe we’re both biased,” I shrug. “I’m not doing this because of what you said. But your point is undoubtedly one the reasons I’m doing this. I’m not just thinking about myself here. I don’t know if it would ever understand why Santiago and I can’t be together.
“If I were to keep it, I know I’d love him or her with all my heart, but it would ask questions eventually. Questions that I don’t want to answer. Questions that need to be forgotten. Handing it over to them is not an option. I know I’d be sending it to the same hell I would have had to endure with Poppy as his chosen couldn’t live with myself if I did that”
“I understand,” he says, taking my hand. I’m going to wait out here for you. I can take you home after. We can tell your grandmother, I kept you out.”
“You’d do that for me?”
“I know you would do that for me as well if the situation were reversed.” he shrugs.
“Are you making a joke right now?” I sneer.
“Do you want to laugh?”
“I shouldn’t, I clear my throat.
“One thing you find after taking nor too many hits is that turning all of this shit into a joke is the only way we stay sine We’ve lost a lot, Sophia. More than many have in their long–lived lives. At the end of the lay, there’s really no one to blame. Things are the way they’re supposed to be.
“We all make choices, and we have to live by them no matter heavy they are One day, you’ll be back here. You’ll be
doing this right, with a mate who will hold your hand through all of it, and this will be nothing but a long–lost nightmare. I
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My eyes fill with tears. I can’t bring myself to look up at him. When Dr Grant comes back, she gives me a nod. I wipe my face and stand up. I follow her up the stairs, where she’s prepare some things for me. I quietly get out of my clothes and change into the robe. I tie my hair back and wait for her to come in.
“Okay she takes a deep breath and lets it out in a huff before sitting in the rolling stool. “This procedure is going to take a few minutes, but I want to clear out as much as I can. So, I will be putting you under. Would you like me to explain what happens when you wake up now, or after?
“After,” I nod.
“Sure. You’re going to be groggy for a while. I’ve told the King you’ll be here for a couple of hours before you can get back on your feet again. He said he’ll be here waiting to take you home.”
Thank you!”
“Okay, why don’t you lie back so we can get started?” She takes my things and sets them down in the wash area behind her.
I lie back, taking in the room around me. The walls are painted a dark gray color. The ceiling and trims are all pale white. The fluorescent lights line the ceiling, ice cold. There’s a poster my left with images of lycan anatomy and a chart with medicinal herbs dos and don’ts. On the right, there is a life–size skeleton wearing a top hat and a bow tie while holding a walking stick as if it were the greatest showman in the world.
Straight ahead is a window from wall to wall. Framed with a pretty carved border. It’s been painted over with white and dusted with silver paint to make it look older. The glass is tinted as dark as it can be. I can see the crescent moon outside, despite the lingering storm clouds
It’s a lot darker at night here than it is in the city. Even with the int, I can see the sky full of stars. Artificial light detracts from the beauty of a natural night sky in the city. Since coming ere, I find myself looking up at the stars almost every night, but tonight, I can’t look away from the moon.
I doubt the tint is too dark to keep her sight off me. I know she’s watching me. She always has been. She watched me save the life of the girl who would take everything from me. She watched me almost get ripped in half by those rogues that attacked us. She watched my family get torn apart while they saved as many of her people as they could. She watched me every single day as I went through the pain of physical therapy and numerous surgeries.
The moon goddess watched as I dragged my soul through what believed would be the worst part of my life, and still she paired me with this man who turned around and blamed me for ruining his life because of what she’s done to me. She has rejected me and everything I have offered. My faith never dwindled through it all, but enough is enough. I don’t want to have faith in the moonlight that never shone on me.
“I reject you and all of your gifts,” I whisper. “I relinquish my sou as a wolf. You are not worthy of my love. You are not worthy of my pain. I will howl for you no more. I walk on the path of shadow where the moonlight will never touch me. forevermore
“Count back from ten, Dr Grant says quietly as she places a mas over my mouth
Lightning flashes across the sky as I begin to count down. The sand of heavy rain meets my ears, and the crescent moon disappears along with the stars behind the storm clouds. With each passing second, I become more and more weightless. It feels a lot like she’s accepted my rejection, and the weight of the world she cast me mate starts falling away into nothing. For that is what Lam. That is the worth we both now see in another. I am nothing, Isit now so is she
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Sara Lili is a daring romance writer who turns icy landscapes into scenes of fiery passion. She loves crafting hot love stories while embracing the chill of Iceland’s breathtaking cold.
