Chapter 12-3
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Chapter 12-3
After a while, she finally pulls back a little and says Talk to me” gently, like she always does when
I’m upset.
“He doesn’t want me, mom.” I whisper to her and admitting it aloud to her, and myself, gives me a physical pain in my chest. “I knew that he wouldn’t, but it hurts.”
“You don’t know that. Feelings are complicated.” she says, brushing my hair back from my face.
“He doesn’t though, and he’s stuck with me. I think just being rejected would be better. I’ll always be the mate he’s stuck with.” and she just lays there, listening to me, letting me talk through all my
feelings and the thoughts running through my head
“He knew, mom. For 4 years he KNEW I was his mate, and he knew I wasn’t good enough. He said he didn’t think I’d be a good queen, that he searched for someone who would be better than me. It’s like he’s assuming that ‘I’ think I’ll be a good queen, and I certainly know I won’t. I can’t shift, I can’t link my pack. I can’t even mark my mate, Mom. Looking at him markless would be a daily reminder of every way I’m not good enough.” I say to her and she kisses my head, still holding me.
“What if I can’t have pups? Or I die trying to deliver them? Or worse, I pass on my broken wolf to
the future king?” I say between sobs.
“Molly, the worst of those would be you dying. You can’t pass on how your wolf is different, of that
I’m certain. Of that WILLOW is certain,” she tells me softly. “You won’t die delivering his pups,
Molly. The Goddess wouldn’t have made you mates if that was going to happen. The Goddess
doesn’t make mistakes. Trusting in that is how I’ve always been so sure of what a treasure you
truly are.”
“He hates me, mom. And he’s stuck with me. The whole kingdom is.”
“You don’t know that he hates you. I’ll admit, he made some very poor choices, but he’s here now
and you know about each other and you’re kind of stuck in this together now. ” Mom tries to
reason with me. “It’s only been a day, but it’s been a busy one and I know how the mate bond can
- It’s overwhelming and all consuming. You’re calm and sensible, but it’s causing your emotions
to feel uncontrolled to you.”
She’s right. I’ve never felt so terrible as I have with the emotional swings I’ve felt since first feeling
the bond.
“He seems like a nice man,” she says softly into my hair, placing a gentle kiss. “Talk to him about it. People make mistakes, and people make bad choices at times, but it may not change how he feels about you now. Sometimes, when it comes to our mate, we just have to trust them and hope for
the best.”
We lay there a while and I fall asleep, though it’s anything but peaceful. I’m too hot, and I’m too
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cold. I can’t get comfortable. I wake up completely and realize that mom is gone and I’m alone in their room again. I finally decide to get up and head down to my suite. I grab my things and attempt to sneak down but I find that the pack house is unusually empty. Thank the goddess, I quickly move through the house and down the stains and lock myself safely in my home.
I realize that the bond isn’t going to let me sleep well while both of our emotions are so high, so, giving up, I decide to shower quickly and head to the kitchens to see if there’s anything I can help with. I never really arranged anything with Oliver for this afternoon and evening, but I’m sure that when I didn’t show up he jumped in and is taking care of things.
I put on some jeans, a tshirt and a white chef’s jacket and head across the kitchens to find them just as I expected and running smoothly. I peek in my office and see Oliver and he looks up at me. “You look like shit.” he says and I’m thankful for him
“I know. And I feel like it. I’m sorry I didn’t show up, but thank you for handling everything.” I tell
him.
“Of course. But is everything OK?”
“Yeah, it’s fine. Maybe. Things just got a little complicated.”
“Ok. But why is your brother outside fighting your mate?
“Excuse me, what??”
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